Now this is a blog post I never thought I would have to write. I had 2 trouble free pregnancies before. I was nauseous a lot and with Caleb I had some sever pain at 20 weeks which was a ligament stretching that got caught in front rather than behind the bump. But never anything serious. I never really enjoyed them and now I wonder why. I had it easy and stress free.
The moment you see fresh red blood when you go to the loo the whole world changes. Things are no longer normal and fine, they are scary and feel out of control. I had spent the morning having coffee at a friend and sitting KNITTING of all things, you don’t get more relaxed than that. When I got home I noticed the bleeeing and just like that the bubble of “all-is-plodding-along-fine” was popped.
The Geek came home to fetch me (he says he destroyed his diesel car – so he was at home quite quickly seeing as he works 30km away), my lovely midwife arranged for me to go to the Emergency room at the hospital where the gynae is as he was in theater but they could assess me and then call him if necessary. She even came to the hospital to be with us. I love her!Catherine was a life saver and watched the kids, 3 and a half hour with them there would have been hell. It would have meant The Geek would be baby sitting rather than holding my hand.
We were booked in quickly, the nurse asked some questions and asked me to do a pee test, I knew I had to have a full bladder for the ultrasound and I just wanted to hear a heart beat. But no, a whole process first. I go do the pee test, drop the bottle in the loo, damn, wonder if i should ask for a new bottle, I am too stressed so I rinse it and pee. Funny enough even after dropping it in the toilet bowl my urine was clear LOL.
The casualty Dr comes in, all I want is a damn ultrasound but no he want to feel if the cervix is dilated, Yay lets do the most invasive procedure first! I get a lovely hospital gown the one with your bum getting a breeze. Dr does internal and cervix close thank goodness. Let me pause her to say I have a female gynae for pap smears and go to midwifes for my births and the last one did myself. Strange men don’t get to feel my cervix!
Now because I emptied my bladder earlier I have to drink water! The Geek takes this job very seriously and I think I drank 5 glasses in 20 mins I was ready to puke. After the utlrasound I pee no less than 3 times in 40mins. So the porter arrives to take us to the ultrasound. I know they are ultersounding my tummy so ask for my pants back – no for some reason unknow I to stay with the indignity of my ass in the breeze. All I could think was I want my pants.
They were new lovely hippy tie-dye on the bottom flowing pants from Big Blue ( for the Brits we call trousers pants so no I am not talking about flowing knickers). I just wanted the saftey of my pants. It was like if I could close it all up again down there somehow my baby would be okay. I could make it all alright and normal. Nothing is normal about no pants strangers, tests and blood in pregnancy.
The ultrasound Dr was wonderful and spent ages explain stuff. I have never been more glad in all my life to hear any other sound as I was to hear that heart beat and see the baby moving actively around. The only reason that they could see for the bleed is my placenta is a bit low, this after questions about the frequency of our sex life – refer to blog post Pregnancy is killing my sex life.if I have had trauma or fallen on my tummy etc etc. Pinkgeek baby is an over achiever already and still bigger than expected but at least has grown well since last scan so it is not a issue with the baby.
Finally pack to casualty, I can pee the start of the 5 cups-of-water pees and get my pants on! Still bleeding but the Dr said there was nothing that they can do just wait and see. That the cervix is closed and baby is okay is a good sign now it is just a waiting game.
Any idea how much fun it is to wait and see if your baby is going to make it?